forever yours? how about, Never yours.

i care <3

(via xheroofthedayx)

THe child was forced from her shell into your empty hell,

drink some more; take away some more dignity; Kill me while your at it.

Do I deserve all that I get? The empty void with in my core has turrned me into a little whore

Thanks alot for making me grow up young,

i want to claw your eyes out and break your teeth in,

What did I do to deserve to be stuck around some one like you?

Why does everone think it’s a lie?

Leave me be,Let me be a child, or let me go live alone.

I don’t want your fingers in my cavities or your palms on my breasts.

I want some one to be a father figure, protect me, not take my dignity.

You disgust me But i know if i say anything my life will go to hell, can’t sleep from the

fear,Cant eat from my churning stomache,And i cut so that i dont cry so loudly

Force me from my shell, into the pits of hell. But il pretendit’s not happening and to be

asleep till its over

dreamdecay:

I often wonder what it would be like to feel innocent again. Having the Garden of Eden accommodate my soul in a paradise of purity, having my hands clean and my heart intact. I wish I was innocent again

Just because you were raped doesn’t mean your not pure.. your more pure because you said no and lived on after, rape isn’t your fault.

Lesson learned my faith has been burned, like a rock threw a window ill break for every whim of yours, ill follow you untill i can no longer walk, even as you shove me away, ill cry a river that noone will be swimming, and if my life was a song no one would want to be the one singing,the most giving pearson you know is only self-aggrandizing them selves in how you made them feel. i will be selfish im not going to give my self away. You were drunk and i said no but it doesnt matter because you dont remember, like life being a hole that you were placed in at birth, noone knows your in this hole but thatdoesnt stop them from throwing down ontop of you. the piles of trash you cant escape they follo0w you into your dreams, twisting you and tieing you down with a hand over your mouth and piss on your grave. im glad that my mom hears you cry in your sleep but thats nooware near the pain you inflicted on me.the \n you throw my friends into this hole but they enjoy it they dont mind. dig your talens into my soul i cant wait till you grow so old, your teeth will decay and your fingers will crumble. and maybe the last wrods that you say will be im sorry i never meant to take your pride away,. i give my self away every fucking day i pretend to be alseep  untill you walk away, in my sleep i dream of more horrid things 

i love him, he doesnt even know i exist, i make mistakes, we all do, ive never felt this way about anyone but you..<3

I want a boy who:

1)understands how i think

2)doesn’t judge me for acting totally parinoid when im pmsing

3)can make me laugh uncontrollabley

4)is faithful

5)isnt too smart but not dumb either

6)has good looks

7)isnt afraid to say what he is thinking

8)lets me say what im thinking

9)someone i can fall in love with.

10)someone who can fall in love with me

11)isnt afraid to kiss me in school or infrount of people

12)will make the first move

13)lets me have freedom

14)that trusts me and i can trust

15) treats me like a friend and a lover

16)doesn’t take it too fast 

17)would die for me/ i would die for

Is that so much to ask for?